Still to this day I think I'm dreaming only I dread waking up most mornings but our boys keep me going. You passed away in Feb and I found out in May that I was pregnant and in July I had an other beautiful wee boy and i called him Alexander. He's doing super good and thriving at 7 and a half mth. Kelvin, well where do I start with him? He's 2, he's wild,crazy, beautiful, clever, too cute he's thriving too u wld b super proud of the young boy he's become. Callan he's 7 and he misses u like mad. He's still the clever wee cookie and doing super good at his new school. He's moved up in his swimming, he loves playing football in and out of school. Callan's thriving too, he's one beautiful, intelligent, smart, brave young boy. You wld b super proud of your 3 boys. Beth and Ryan r doing super good too Beth's turned into a stunning young lady. Ryan's turning into a proper young boy too, but needs a good kick up the back side. But u wld still b proud of them all. Me I still can't believe ur not here. No way did I ever think I wld b left alone with our boys. I miss u more and more each day, I cry myself to sleep most nights that's if I do sleep Sometimes I struggle but I get there. I know u wld b proud of me I am doing my best for the boys and I keep smiling for them. I put the smile on my face most days better smiling than crying. I cld cry for ever long way u not being here, it hurts me so much inside. My wee heart got ripped out the day u left me. Love u forever Mark. Mark and Shona forever.Xxxx